The Lord is compassionate and gracious
slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
(Ex. 34:6, Neh. 9:17, Ps. 86:15, 103:8, 145:8, Joel 2:13, Jonah 4:2)
I believe with all my heart that God is in control and that despite all the evil and suffering He is good and loves people more then we could ever begin to imagine. God loves the people in this world far more then I ever could ... and He allows suffering. It's not to say that He causes suffering, or that it does not break His heart, but He does not magically wish it away.
How then could I then wish away what God has allowed? I don't know why it happens, but I believe that everything that happens is in His control and ultimately serves a purpose. So, unless God told me that it was His will for me to wish away suffering from the world, I don't think I could do it. I would REALLY hope He would tell me that, but...even I can see how good comes from pain.
What would I the wish for?
Ultimately, I had this picture of me sitting in this car, having all this run through my head, hands on the steering wheel, debating what I would do. And my hour of pondering came to an end as I pictured myself getting out of the car and walking away.
All that to say I wound up writing a poem about it (I'm in an American Lit class, what can I say? it's in my brain) because I felt that I couldn't accurately describe what I felt just through writing. So, if what I just wrote made no sense, maybe this will help. Or maybe it'll just be confusing, I don't know. But I like it so I thought I'd share it :)
A stroll through a deserted wood
led me to a peculiar stump
I sat to ponder
sat and thought of what I would
If there were such a thing as luck
a leprechaun
or magic lamp
A cure for all, the end of pain
eternal hope, some greater gain
something only if I could
Yet what would I obtain?
What would I attain?
Struggle, purpose, triumph lost
Love - sacrifice and choice
Absence only, knowing
wishing nothing.